Hi kids, and to everyone new here or just casually snooping.

Since we're starting 2026, I just thought I should reintroduce myself. 

I’m Grace, 31, from Taguig. I’ve been blogging since 2014, and this space is basically my digital diary. I mostly write monthly recaps where I dump my top songs, things I watched, and whatever the hell I was up to that month. Sometimes I also write about my running era, my dating life (I have no one lol), or anything I feel like oversharing at the moment. 

-- now onto our January blog --

I thought grief would feel lighter over time, but it's not. I found myself talking to my aunt's portrait whenever we're alone. It makes me feel better somehow. I know she's watching us, and she's probably even beside me right now as I type this lol Tita don't scare me, you know naman! I know I will get through this. I just need some more time. I miss you, Madam! 

On days when I feel better, I would try to go out with friends. Honestly, I have been bedrotting ever since she passed. I didn't feel like going out, but I do miss being outside. 

I finally met up with Rey again! We’re officially back to working together, and honestly, despite everything I’ve been going through lately, this new job is the one thing that’s been giving me genuine happiness. I didn’t even get the chance to celebrate it properly, but this moment felt like one in itself! 

We had some fancy high tea experience at Conrad. I love it sm!

Then we had a sponty sunset cruise at MoA. It was already past 7pm, so it's dark, but it's still a fun experience. It helped me take my mind off of things for a while.

Kids, we love your Tita Rey. She will be our go-to person if I can no longer help you with your 4th grade math homework hehe

Went on a solo date. I ate some good Japanese food at DonDonTei! I spoiled myself with a new pink ukulele that would probably just end up as decoration since the quality isn't giving lol it made me happy though!!!

I also celebrated your dear Tito Vien's birthday. We tried bowling this time. It was so tiring, I went home with my arms numb!!! 

Lastly, there was the Circus Music Festival. I missed the feeling of attending stuff like this! I have never felt more alive. 

 Full blog post coming soon! 

I attended my last meeting with my former company. I'm gonna miss everyone!! Being under the Deals team made me feel so loved, supported and well taken care of. You all made working so tolerable. I'm going to miss doing the training, too but I feel like it's also the perfect time for me to leave. I have learned so many things working there for almost 3 years and I'm thankful for the opportunities. Bye KW family! It's been one heck of a ride. 

Few snaps from my camera roll

- my dear coworker, sent me this box of brownies as a despedida treat! ilsym ate Grace!

- finally started my 1,000-piece puzzle

- random food order while blasting Chappell Roan

- the said ukulele -_-

- Latte ASMR to help me sleep

- me and my caesar salad obsession

Matcha Adventures!

- matcha spanish latte from Tokyo Matcha (less sugar is so good!)

- matcha latte from DonDonTei (hmm it's okay ig)

- matcha drink from Tealive (it was bad but the palpitations were thrilling lol I forgot the name but it had some pink pearls in it, which I find cute!)

- matcha latte from 180 Cafe (too sweet; didn't even taste the matcha at all)

- matcha latte from Bittersweet Cafe (a bit bland)

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Netflix Department

The first crime docu was called "Kidnapped: Elizabeth Smart" . It was so scary; I couldn't imagine what I would've done if I were in her situation! :(

Top Song From This Month

1.) Cosmic - Red Velvet (the bridge of this song is sooo bewitching!)

2.) Spaghetti - Le Sserafim (goodass workout song)

3.) Honey - Taylor Swift ("you can call me honey if you want" aaaaaaah)

4.) I'll Still Have Me - Cyn (current crashout song)

5.) Ang Awit Natin - Janine Tenoso (takes me back to 2019 T^T)

It’s strange because some days I want to go out and be around people, and other days I feel a sudden urge to shut myself off from everyone. I think a big part of this comes from grief. It takes a toll on me every time. Losing so many people in my life, I sometimes wonder if I should be numb by now, but it still hurts just as much.

I know I’ll come around eventually. I know I’ll be okay.

Lately, I've been watching ASMR to help me get to sleep because it is so hard to sleep. These days, my mind is just full of thoughts; I wish I could shut them off like a switch. But ever since I started watching it before bed, my sleep has improved so much. I can get at least 6-8 hours a day. I used to find this stuff cringe, but it's so damn therapeutic! 

My darling, Feli recommended Latte ASMR to me. She's so good, she even calms my anxiety!

Here's to healing and being okay with things that are beyond my control. 

See you on my next blog!