What better way to start my day than with a depressing movie I’ve already seen twice—except this time, on the big screen for some emotional damage promax? lol 

Hi kids, today' we're gonna watch your Dad (Levi) for the last time. Also, if you haven't noticed, posting this on Valentine's Day because this anime is literally the love of my life♥

Yes, you read that right. Last. As in, this could actually be the last time Attack on Titan airs in cinemas since this is the final part of the whole anime saga. Of course, unless Isayama suddenly wakes up one day, drinks his morning coffee, and thinks, You know what? Let’s make an alternate ending where everyone is alive and happy!

I dragged my friend Yoyo to SM Aura because, for some reason, this thing was exclusive to SM Cinemas. IKR. If I had it my way, I would've gone to SM Megamall because their setup was chef’s kiss—huge standees, full-on AOT shrine vibes—but since Aura was closer and we needed to avoid the weekend stampede of fellow traumatized fans, we settled for convenience over aesthetics.

Now, for the outfit—because yes, even in times of war (and by war, I mean emotionally preparing myself for this movie), one must serve looks. I finally got to ROI my Survey Corps jacket from Oxygen, which has been collecting dust for five years because I only ever wore it thrice. But on this day? It was finally fulfilling its destiny.

Fast forward to Friday afternoon: I booked the 11:15 AM showing. I woke up at 10ish AM. Do the math. Miraculously, I made it to the cinema exactly at 11:15. I barely had time to breathe before the staff handed us our popcorn and drinks and escorted us to our seats. They waited for us before they turned off the lights. I could feel the judgment. The Director’s Club only had a handful of people, but they were all staring. My bad, folks! Yo girl had to sleep after work!

The movie ran for a little over two hours, and I won’t lie—I was a bit lost on exactly where they had left off. (Too much trauma to keep track of, okay?) But I did remember the ending. Oh boy, the ending.

I’m so glad I wore my Survey Corps jacket because the cinema was freezing—I ended up using it as a blanket. What started as a fashion statement turned into a survival tool lol

and after what seemed like an hour, the saddest parts slowly came one by one

💔 Hange’s death and her reunion with the fallen Scouts.

💔 Levi’s "Shinzou wo Sasageyo", complete with emotions (yes, Levi showing emotions).

💔 Mikasa realizing she had to kill Eren to stop the rumbling.

💔 The mountain scene between Eren and Mikasa </3

💔 Mikasa chopping off Eren’s head... and then kissing it.

💔 Eren throwing a full-on man-child tantrum in the Paths because he didn’t want Mikasa to move on.

💔 Armin sobbing at the sight of Eren’s severed head in Mikasa’s arms.

no pics from this part coz I wailed with Armin!!!

💔 Mikasa sitting at Eren’s grave, saying she misses him. (Still crying ofc)

ty Yoyo for snapping this photo, now I know how ugly my double chin looked, Jusko!

MAPPA Animation Appreciation!

Too much happening, heartache, and misery in the anime that Isayama thought the only way to cheer up the traumatized fans was to create an alternate universe for the trio lol

I think Attack on Titan ended exactly the way it should have. If Isayama suddenly decided, you know what, let’s give everyone a happy ending, it wouldn’t have felt right. Sure, it would’ve healed me (and trust me, I need that), but for a story this brutal, a neat little fairytale ending would’ve felt... off.

Eren being the villain was tragic, but in the end, he did it for his friends. He wasn't left with much choice. It was horrible. It was painful. But it was AOT 

I've said it before, I don't watch much shounen genre coz I'm a shoujo genre girlie through and through but this sits at the top of my list for being the all time fave anime. And no matter what, I'll always be a Levi and Eren girl!!!

So kids, one day when you’re out in the world, watch this masterpiece. It’s not pretty. In fact, it’s traumatizing. But stay for the plot (and for Levi, because your mom has taste).

ok bye

Seeing your friends marry is a different kind of feeling. I just can't explain it. It's like sending your kids to college type of feeling -  bittersweet. One minute, you’re just casually hanging out, and the next, boom—they’re exchanging vows and committing to a lifetime of shared WiFi and grocery lists.

Then reality smacks you in the face.

Wait. We’re at that marrying age now?

This is normal?!?

If I ever get pregnant, I swear I’d still feel like it’s a teenage pregnancy. Like, are we really adults? I don’t think so.

On Thursday, my friends and I checked into an Airbnb where I planned to finish my shift before heading to the hotel early Friday morning. Classic me—trying to mix work with wedding duties. (10/10 would not recommend.)

Came Friday morning. We met Stevie at the hotel lobby and just seeing him made me tear up! Like hoyyy ikakasal ka na talaga! I just can hardly believe it!! I’ve known Stevie for over a decade since he’s Bill’s friend from college, and we used to see each other at fiestas in Tondo. When he introduced Gail to our group, she fit in so naturally that I somehow ended up as her bridesmaid. Life be like that sometimes.

So I went on my way and joined the rest of the bridesmaids. got my make up and hair done. We even practiced a cute little dance—Push 2 Start by Tyla (which, for the record, involved some kendeng to the left, kendeng to the right action LOL)

Gail also gifted us these matching nighties, which made us feel all cute and coordinated. Bridesmaids’ perks, am I right?

with Isay and Ren!

Then came the photoshoot, which meant forced laughter and fake candid moments.

I forgot how painfully awkward it is to act like you’re having the time of your life in front of a camera. Meanwhile, the other girls were natural-born influencers, so at least their energy saved me from looking like a robot.. 

I don’t know why, but seeing Gail in her wedding gown for the first time hit so hard
 Like, "sis, we were just eating sushi last month, and now you’re about to make a lifelong commitment?!" Time moves too fast.

She also gave us adorable tote bags filled with wipes, tissues, sanitizer, and a mini fan—because she knew we were gonna cry and sweat through this entire event. Very practical, and very much appreciated.

After some more photo op, we headed to the church. I thought we would miss the entourage coz we were running a bit late. 

I'm glad we didn't!

The coordinator lined everyone up and out of nowhere, a church staff grabbed me and told me I had to walk down the aisle alone. HUH??? Excuse me maem, I literally have a groomsman standing beside me in line?!

I didn't know what happened exactly. Turns out, there was some miscommunication, and at the very last second, another staff member stopped my groomsman from walking alone and re-paired us. I felt a little embarrassed for myself, but oh well, maybe I WILL REALLY WALK THIS LIFE ALONE. and that's foreshadowing lolol

Then, the moment of truth—Gail walking down the aisle.

If I thought I was emotional before, this was next-level. The tears? Uncontrollable. I was a mess.

The Holy Matrimony began, and we all witnessed the big moment—the I do’s leading up to THE KISS (which, let’s be real, is what we were all waiting for). Ughhh, I was so kinikilig!

For a brief moment, I had that "I wanna be married too" thought.

…And then my rational brain was like, or, hear me out, I could just rent a wedding dress, do a photoshoot, and return everything. But of course, people would judge the hell out of me for that, so never mind. 😭

After the mass, it was time for another endless round of photoshoots. At this point, my feet were SCREAMING from wearing heels. So when the coordinator finally released us from photoshoot duty, it was the best moment of my life.

At the reception, my nerves kicked in when I saw the amount of people—because we had to perform our entrance dance. But surprisingly, we pulled through!

Then came the parent speeches. And let me tell you—I CRIED. It was so heartwarming, but also? It hit me that if I ever get married… I wouldn’t have any parents to give a speech for me.

That thought alone had me sobbing. But I reminded myself—this is not a sad day! This was about celebrating a lifetime union between two of my closest friends.

Then came Gail & Stevie’s first dance to Ed Sheeran’s “Perfect.”

SO. ROMANTIC. See? Even Lyka couldn't hold her kilig!

Luckily, the reception games were not focused on single people getting paired up, because I hate those. I may talk like a slut sometimes, but deep inside, I’m a shy girl, okay?? 😌

Like, I can kiss girls, but please don’t make me touch men in a game LOL.

The food? 10/10.

The mobile bar? Utang ng Pilipinas/10.

You bet I maximized the hell out of that open bar.

I kept coming back for different cocktails until I just straight-up asked them to serve drinks directly to our table LOL.

Bless you, mobile bar staff.

It was getting late and most of the guests had left already, but then Janina started dancing at the stage and every one of us joined!! It was exhausting. It was chaotic.

Seeing your friends get married is an experience like no other. It’s emotional, nostalgic, and makes you question your entire existence.

But at the end of the day, it’s about celebrating love—and I’m so grateful I got to witness this moment for two people I truly care about.

To Gail & Stevie—cheers to forever. ❤️

ps. I took these home lol

And to my other friends… y'all better start proposing.