Now I understand why people stay at cafes with their laptops because that's exactly what I'm doing right now and for some weird reason, my drive and motivation are on fire! lol could be just the matcha in my system though. 

I was watching the newly released "The Jeffrey Dahmer Tapes" just a while ago but had to stop because it was too gore! The details of his recordings are beyond inhuman! it's making me feel sick and I kinda lose my appetite. ;__;

Apparently, I barely got my "me-time" because I would always ring someone every chance I get to appease my dying social life lol 

and this just proves that giving yourself time makes you feel at peace, and a great opportunity to collect your thoughts properly, para naman di imaging marupok.

I'm enjoying and I'll probably start more of this to relax and treat myself at the same time! 

As you can probably tell right now, I have so many chika coz' my 2 brain cells are surprisingly functioning today but let's now get to the main topic of this blog.

How my October went.

My sister, my nephew, and I went to the mall. It's Bogart's first gala with me! And I was like, "ay di na lang pala talaga ako mag-aanak". Because it was goddamn tiring! Failed to make him stop crying multiple times ;__; For the most part, I still loved it though and despite my patience being put to an ultimate test, I will never ever get tired of hanging out with my nephew. The love I have for this piece of potato is beyond immeasurable and it's not even my own kid! So this bitch got to work on her patience, and might as well do some arm workouts because he is one heck of a healthy, heavy baby boy!

Actually, had a haircut twice this month! Poor hair always being the one to pay for all the emotional drama I'm having in my life! It's quite a circus up there! AHAHA! Fellas, that's what you call a coping mechanism lol It was a wolf cut at first but had to cut it shorter just after 2 weeks because I wasn't just feeling it. I'm nothing new to sporting a bob, honestly prefer it over long locks. Easier to manage and tipid sa shampoo!

I think y'all are probably tired of me flexing my inuman sesh but hehe izz here.

Another Soju night! istg it's helpful to have some of these sitting in your fridge. Especially when you feel like going solo. Did it a couple of times and it's always a happy, tipsy but one heck of a good night. 10000/10 would recommend. 

My good friend, Aya, and I had another mall date! He's the type of friend you can invite anywhere, anytime, and he'll always be on the go. I could literally drag him anywhere with me! 

While it's understandable that everyone's got lives to live, Don't you just appreciate friends who are willing to move around their schedules just to make time for you? That alone says A LOT!

October is also when my Father's birthday falls into. Invited some of my relatives over, Bogart was there to attend his Lolo's birthday celebration too! Prepared some home-cooked meals and of course lumpiang shanghai ftw!!!!!

On the third week of October, I had a breakfast date with Gail. Quite the unexpected combo coz' she's the girlfriend of my best friend's friend, Stevie.         

I know confusing right? lol but we hit it off right away. We literally share the same sentiments in everything. Gail and I have been actively communicating ever since she was introduced to the gang so we finally agreed on meeting up. I mean I got used to having friends who are into kagaguhan and kalokohan and rarely talk about something that's more into girl stuff, so Gail is such a breath of fresh air in my circle!

 She's such a sweetheart ♥

She even prepared a gift for me on my birthday! T^T

Thank youu so much! ♥♥♥

And I know this is just the beginning of more coffee, breakfast dates, spa trips, and travel!

So moving on, October 21 is also the release of the much-awaited 10th studio album of Taylor Swift which is called "Midnights". 

IF YOU HAVE NOT CHECKED IT YET, PLEASE STREAM IT!

and support our capitalist queen lol

"Anti-Hero" MV is also out now!

 to a more in-depth discussion of her album, I made a separate blog about it. 

CLICK HERE!

// MOVIE | SERIES //

I haven't had much time to squeeze in watching a movie or a series, but aside from that Dahmer Confession Tapes, I'm also up to date with "Unsolved Mysteries Season 3". They just launched a new season and I remember watching Season 2 when it was still in lockdown! Again with the docuseries, I know. I'm just a sucker for True Crime Documentaries. The good thing about it though, my short-term memory helps me, so how t f am I going to scare myself at night if I barely remember anything about it at all? Mindset ba mindset. 

Oh and I'm also watching "Worst Roommate Ever", another True Crime Docu. Still in episode one though but I learned that just because someone is old, doesn't mean they're no longer capable of doing something evil. I mean, that old lady whose name I forgot killed, poisoned, and buried 7 people in her own backyard! That's effin sick! Mind you that she's in her 60s or 70s already. Damn that strength! Meanwhile, I, in my late 20s am already struggling with back pains, and katinko is literally my perfume. T^T we really cannot have it all huh.

To my weeb department, it has been officially announced that  OJOU BANKEN-KUN / A GIRL AND HER GUARD DOG" is getting an anime adaptation! I have not read it yet but it's on my list so I have to start reading it before the anime comes out next year! Again, something to look forward to alongside AOT, JJK, and Solo Leveling \m/

November is here. 

and I have a question, will this bitch gonna be employed til the end of the year? Abangan sa susunod na kabanata...

 HAHA! jk! I need that chaching-chaching kase mag-papasko na ya know!

See you on my next blog mga tropa!

xoxo

Grace

 TO ALL MY FELLOW SWIFTIES OUT THERE,
MAKE SOME NOISE!!!
Our queen is finally back! Released at midnight on October 21st, is Taylor Swift's 10th studio album, Midnights. Her last album, "Evermore" was released way back in 2020 and we got Taylor's Versions of her "Red" and "Fearless" albums in between. 
Honestly, can't wait for my best friend, Bill, and I to jam and cover the entire album lol Ultimately, I just know all songs in the album are gonna be a bomb. She always ate. Periodt! 

Midnight Rain - The beat and the altered voice, in the beginning, are soo addictive. Some people said this song is for Tom Hiddleston because he's a little too nice and perfect, but she has dreams and a career to pursue in the industry. The production of this song is phenomenal too! 

"He wanted it comfortable, I wanted that pain
He wanted a bride, I was making my own name"

.....

"And I never think of him
Except on midnights like this"

That was hard!!!!! Perhaps this could change after a couple more streams but those are my current top 5 and now these are the ones who didn't make the cut.

Maroon - I love the entirety of the song, the lyrics, and the message are just chef's kiss. This gives off "Dress" vibes. The chorus is also my fave! She turned from red, and golden to maroon. The growth and views she has of love have matured over the years and I'm here for it!

"The mark they saw on my collarbone. The rust that grew between telephones.
The lips I used to call home. So scarlet, it was maroon"

Question...? - Well this song is actually the one that I fell in love with when I first listened to the entire album. Mainly because I can totally relate to her. Tip-toeing in a fragile, anxious, and tentative relationship. Oh and she sampled "Out of the Woods" in the beginning, and if you're a Swiftie, you know it doesn't mean nothing and true enough, it was indeed related to her relationship with Harry Styles. I ship them soo hard when they dated as I used to be a Directioner too. She's happy now with Joe though, and we support a healthy and low-key relationship!

"We had one thing going on. I swear that it was something

'Cause I don't remember who I was before you"

Sweet Nothing - Must be nice to write a song with someone you love. Ugh. Yes, she wrote this song with Joe. I swear the dude has some hidden musical genes up on his sleeve. "Sweet Nothing" is the most heartwarming song on the album. It's comforting, soft, and sweet. It's when you feel like you are home to someone. It's that kind of feeling and you know why this did not make the list? 

BECAUSE THIS BITCH CANNOT RELATE. PERIODT.

"And the voices that implore "You should be doing more"
To you I can admit. That I'm just too soft for all of it"

I can add some more but that would make the list senseless, it's already long. 

I enjoyed making this list, and I just realized that I have been a Swiftie for the longest time but never made a single blog about it. Will try to share my faves from all her albums from way back up until Midnights! 

Again, thank you for reading and if you are a non-Swifite fan, it's time to start listening to her, I swear you won't regret it. Taylor Swift is a whole music industry! and I'm just happy to be living in the same generation as her as she's the most talented singer-songwriter I know! She's lyrically, and poetically genius, you guys are missing out!

Alright, I'll quit fan-girling, end this blog, and go back to streaming for the gazillion time today.

See you on my next blog about her, let's then start with her first album,

"Taylor Swift". 

xoxo

Grace

 Dating has become so complex and a lot more complicated in today's generation. No-label relationships, fubu, etc. just to name a few. The tita in me only knew happy crushes, MU, dating then of course breaking up. And the worst term we had before is called "paasa".But that's how we millennials dealt with it. Easy peasy. 

But when the digital age took over wherein meeting people is just a swipe of a finger away, dating became so much easier. Lots of dating apps popped out here and there. It's crazy how we went from clan meetups/eyeball to this? Just where did the time go?

The first exposure I had to a dating app was when I was in college. Some of my friends had Tinder installed on their phones and they'd meet up after school. Amazed and intrigued by how it worked, I also installed the app when I got home that day. With every words I typed in on my Bio, came the nervousness, insecurity (lots of it!), and confusion. Like how should I introduce myself to these people? Will I get noticed by saying that I like anime and music? Were my looks enough to make them swipe? I've had those thoughts running through my head. I ended up uninstalling the app, I was new to it and did not feel comfortable staying. My curiosity was already satisfied seeing the gits of it.

Fast forward to today's era, I became more accustomed to dating apps. Everyone has accepted the fact that this is the world we live in today. Believe it or not, I have a few of them installed on my phone. It is indeed a good way to find friends/lovers (if you are lucky). I still speak with friends I met there, trust me there are decent ones.

But as a millennial, I still find it hard to cope at times. Because despite meeting and knowing someone from an app, I still long for a genuine connection which obviously all the apps could never ever give me. It will never be on par with meeting someone for the first time face-to-face. If you're still stuck in your Maria Clara phase of dating, you'll most likely be left out. Honestly.

 And you know why it's hard to rely on dating apps? because you truly do not know the person you're talking to. Everyone can lie and say that they're this and that but who knows! You might be talking to a scammer, sex offender, or murderer! 

Never trust a stranger you just met online. 

In addition to that, you will never be sure if that person is even single. God knows he could be married or in a long-term relationship and you are a budding candidate for the mistress role. 

Also one of the things that bother me the most about dating apps is that most of them are not looking for something serious. Some men there are just really there to find someone to hook up with. I mean yeah hookups are cool, but only if both parties enjoy it and have consented to it. And not everyone on the app likes to go down that route. Not me. I'm like one of the few people who are actually there to find something meaningful which is obviously a challenge or else you wouldn't find me here blogging about my frustrations!

Today's generation is liberating, us in our Titas/Titos age somehow find it hard to keep up. Quick story! Someone messaged me the other day and when I checked his profile, he is 19 years old. Child, chill I'm already your aunty. Go back to studying please, I cannot be your sugar mommah haha

And I'd just like to compare dating back then to now. Before, we would really go out and have nice chitchat in person. Would go watch movies in the cinema, park dates, and try out rides in an amusement park, you know like the actual dates couples usually do. Today's dating is more of waiting for replies, 10-12 hours videocalls, Netflix party watch, and I don't think I'd appreciate that, I mean I know it's cute and shit but not all the damn time. Especially if you guys are not even in a long-distance relationship. To be honest, the digital age made people lazy.

Quick shoutout to every Tita/Tito out there feeling the same sentiments I have. Dealing and trying to cope with this generation is such a struggle. Dating has evolved in so many ways over time. I'm not even sure if it's for the better lol

Well, that sums up today's blog. 

P.S if you don't like me, at least give my number to your friend. You mf.

xoxo

Grace

"The core definition of bare minimum is literally one step above nothing"

 Truthfully, this is because we are so desperate in making a relationship work. We wanted the connection with that person to labor into something more serious. Sadly, this is the usual product of past failed relationships. You realize that maybe you are setting your standards way too high that no one seems to match them, so you opted to lower them, and for some reason, it is indeed working.

So how you can tell if someone is giving you a bare minimum? Easy. It's also the same moment you ask yourself that question. They will give you little of their time, effort, commitment, and emotion, just enough to keep you interested. It is when they make you feel dramatic if you ask more from them. They "like you" but not enough to actually pursue you. And they're not as emotionally invested as you. Sakit noh? And since you're way too swayed by this person, you will never realize it. You'll probably think that sacrificing some of what you truly deserve in a relationship is worth it. 

But it's not. 

You will know when someone is bare minimum-ing you when you find yourself in a never-ending feeling of confusion on where you really should stand. The future you picture in your head is nothing but a blurry and muddy vision. You are basically on your tip-toes all the damn time. 

The worst part about all of this is, that you do not know how to get out of it. Because you are too deep and full of intense feelings for this person who sadly is not even sure about you. It's always gonna be a competition and you know. You are aware, that it's always gonna be you on the losing side. 

When you accept that kind of treatment, you are also courting heartbreak. However, you are smitten, whipped even to do something about it. You settle for the bare minimum because you enjoy romance no matter how short-lived it's going to be. You unconsciously love the thrill and excitement it gives you. You know it makes your heart happy and you're more than willing to be the receiver of whatever little he is giving you. Dumb right?

At the end of the day, you should not be settling for this kind of relationship. You do not deserve to be put in a confusing situation. You are more than the butterflies you get when you read their message. Lastly, what is the use of a relationship if that person can't even meet you halfway? If he/she cannot match the energy and wavelength you are so eager to give then kiss their asses goodbye. 

They are not worth it. 

In Tagalog

Gising na bhie di ka talaga nun gusto!

xoxo

Grace

 Recently, I rewatched "Starting Over Again". A classic Filipino film, starring Toni Gonzaga, Papa P, and Iza Calzado. The first time I watched it was when I was still in a relationship with my high school sweetheart. And I remember being so disappointed and mad about the ending. Wtf so you're telling me Ginny and Marco did not end up together? But why? They're basically soulmates who knew each other all their lives! I was so frustrated as to why Patty had to enter the scene. Ginny and Marco had been together for so long. Let them reunite and marry! I have sooo many why's in my head and I literally bawled my eyes out after the movie. 

 Soon after, I realized that the reason why I got so emotionally worked up on that movie, was because I was in the same situation as Ginny. I was dating my high school crush and I was eagerly wishing we would end up together, just like soulmates. And wouldn't it be a nice and exciting love story to tell? Like, oh we were high school sweethearts, rekindled our romance after college, and whatnot? I mean that's a flex! 

To cut the story short, we broke up because he cheated and we don't tolerate bullshit in our lives. I got enough of that already lol so yeah. Well, just like Ginny and Marco, we didn't make it until the end. Which I'm really grateful for, because staying despite knowing everything is torture.

Fast forward to 2022. The other day, I was scrolling through Netflix looking for a good movie to watch when I stumbled through the same movie and gave it another try. 

AND I'M TELLING YOU. GINNY PISSED ME OFF. A LOT!

Like why was she so desperate to have Marco back? The dude was obviously in love with Patty. Give him a break. You left Marco because you're starting to see how much of a loser he became like your father? If you truly loved him, you would've acted like a grown-ass woman and voiced it out not fuxking leave. 

Don't even start with the confrontation between Patty and Ginny. It was a chef's kiss seeing Ginny being put in her place. Like damn Patty, u go girl.

After the movie, I was goddamn satisfied with how it ended. Ginny starting out a new life, moving on, and shit. While Marco and Patty got married. 

and I was like "ohh my take on this was a A LOT different before". I would curse under my breath whenever Patty would show up on the screen. Like the audacity of this woman. But now, Ginny, girl your moment and your relationship with Marco had long been dead and gone. Why not let it stay that way and let the poor guy get another chance at love. 

That's when it hit me that I'd transformed from being a Ginny to a Patty. And now I'm looking at it from Patty's POV while Ginny plays the villain.

Gosh, I remember being in the same funny situation as her with my other former lover in which I despised the "Ginny" in his life. Like why are you still forcing your way in? It's pretty much my turn now. We could never rewrite the history you guys had together and I knew that taking him in meant I'd see parts of you in him yet I WAS more than willing to accept that fact. 

Being the new woman in someone's life while that person is still dealing with an ex-lover is such a pain in the ass but you know what they say if you aren't dumb, you're not in love. And if being stupid is a degree, I would say I'm quite a scholar. 

But just like my high school sweetheart, ours didn't work as well. The Marco in my life probably went back to his Ginny, I mean who knows!  Well, at least in the parallel universe, they did end up together. Hopefully, they work things out this time and not fuck it up again. 

Look at the Patty in me, taking the higher road coz ya know a grown woman does not say cruel things to exes, instead we say, "I wish you happiness", then curses in her head while tapping herself for comfort. That's how it works people. One does not simply stay the same after you tore them apart. You acknowledged the mistake, processed the pain then moved on.

Well not after some ugly crying and alcohol drinking.

xoxo

Grace

 Heyyy!!!

BER- months are finally here! So how did your September go guys?

Mine was a little busy! I finally graduated from my trainee period on my new work, and to be honest, it wasn't an easy one. I'm not even going to sugarcoat it. It was hella challenging! But you know I'm just thankful I'm doing better and am eager to learn more of the ropes so yeah.

We were supposed to attend the Ben & Ben concert last September 3 but it got canceled at the last minute due to heavy and non-stop rain. They rescheduled it for December but there's no way all of us could be available since some from my group circle have work on a Sunday. Saturday is the only day we all agreed on being available. So we're basically left with no choice but to refund our tickets. Sadly. Would have been a bomb though! I was looking forward to bawling my eyes out at the concert while "Sa Susunod na Habang Buhay" is playing but man. ugh I can only groan out my frustrations about it. Well, I'm just glad they put everyone's safety first, but it's still a bummer for me, who's supposedly a first-timer at their concert. :( Maybe next time, I guess.

So instead of jamming to "Leaves" and "Maybe The Night", we ended up drinking alcohol and called it a night. 

Also, Yoyo, a very good friend of mine, is back to MNL from Batanes! What better way to reunite than having a long-ass catch-up over samgyupsal and soju!

On the third week of September, my friends and I had a lunch date for my good ol friend, Xander's birthday. Mind you that we had it set up on a fuxking weekday! Dude it was Wednesday! I barely had any sleep coz I got work at night lol Nevertheless, it was fun having everyone around. I told you Tuason, I could have given you that super energetic "birthday dance" they do at buffets, if you would've just let me haha Happy Birthday mf!

In my movie/series department, here's a short list of what I've binged on last September.

Starting off with a documentary titled "Untold: The Girlfriend Who Didn't Exist", which is basically a story about catfishing back when it wasn't popular or known by everyone today. 

Next is another documentary that trended a few days ago. I really like crime documentaries, I used to binge-watch a lot of these when Covid happened. 

This one is the story of the horrendous crime committed by Jeffrey Dahmer, a well-known serial killer back in the 80s. He has been convicted of 15-16 murders, and he was also known to be a cannibal, yes he did cook some of his victims and ate them himself. It made me sick in the stomach at some point. Serial killers have a really interesting and disgusting way of thinking. They always surprise me.

Evan Peters slayed his role though! He studied him so well. 

After watching a gross and sickening docu, I rinsed myself by watching this movie. "He's Just Not That Into You". A classic, right? The title speaks for itself, it's a film about not forcing any connection, knowing your worth, and when to stop giving a fuxk which is timely, timely relevant to my situation lol. Taught and made me realize A LOT!

For my weeb department, "My Love Story with Yamato-kun at Level 999" will be having an anime adaptation! Haven't been really reading manga these days but damn, this gave me butterflies before so I'm looking forward to watching this soon! Well, I'm still waiting for "Namaikizakari" adaptation :( It's my OG shoujo manga fave!

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September was a lot to take in. Again, that's how life works, it fuxks us up and we move on. I'm just glad I'm entering October without the excess baggage I've desperately carried for months.