Thank You For The Broken Heart

Dear you, you who broke my heart and soul...

Thank you. 

I'm grateful that you broke my heart because it saved me from wasting my time being stuck on you and on my old life.

I was living a dishonest life, thinking you were worth the pain despite catching you red-handed. I told myself every day that if I just held on and waited for you to change, things might be different. But they weren't. You knew you were my weakness and took advantage, pretending to love me while another woman made you happy. I'm not sorry, and I know I did the right thing. It wasn't losing you that broke me; it was the breakup itself. 

When I said I tried, trust me, I did. I tried so hard to understand your situation, and I turned a blind eye to everything you did behind my back. I justified your actions to my friends and family because I loved you. Unlike me, you never truly knew what love meant. The sad fact is that you were lonely and only loved the idea of me.

I remember feeling angry, confused, and disappointed throughout. You cried and promised you would never hurt me again, but you still did. So thank you. Maybe the way you treated me made moving on easier. Because of you, I realized my worth. Although what happened made me terrified to love again, I’m positive that someone out there will love me—the honest and genuine kind of love, the kind that won’t make me question my value every night.

In the end, I forgive you, even if you're not sorry and even if the closure I desperately needed will never come. Thank you because loving you taught me how to give, to hurt, to lose, to heal, and to pick up my broken pieces and walk away when I needed to. Thank you for making that choice and for choosing a path away from me. I’ve learned an important lesson, and I will use this time to grow and to focus on myself. 

I will blossom in my own time.

xoxo

Grasya