The sad news is, Christmas is over. The good news is, New Year is coming. 

How's everyone's holiday going so far? 

Since I'm still high in Christmas spirits thought I'd share something today, I'm going to talk about one of my favorite Christmas memory. My family used to live in this compound together with my relatives. Christmas there has always been fun, loud, and just festive! We would go house to house to greet everyone once the clock strikes 12, then we'd dance all night with loud, banging music. The adults would drink alcohol and we kids would play games. We would put up our decorations as early as September. My mom, she's the most excited of all. My siblings and I would help her decorate our Christmas tree while my dad is in charge of setting up the audio. I've had a harmonious, and enjoyable life in that compound. 

When I was a kid, hmm probably around age 5-6? I would watch Christmas movies with my cousins from time to time. And it was also the first time I came to know Santa Claus. This old giant dude with a long, white beard who wears a red-suit, and lives in North Pole together with his reindeer, and elves. Carrying his red sack full of gifts for kids who have been good. It was instilled in my brain that he is real so I'd try to be a good girl so I could be on his nice list. It was something I'd desperately held into. That if I do good, I'd get a reward from Santa. As a child, my reality is altered by fantasy so it never once occurred to me that he could just be fiction or whatnot. 

One day, My sister told me that if we hang our socks by the window, Santa would come and fill the socks with candies. Being the excited little me, I did what she said. I prepared my favorite school sock, and together, we hang it by the window days before Christmas. It was a very tiny window in our room and I think I may have slipped a love letter to Santa with all my wishes in there too! The next day, my sister woke me up and told me the socks had been filled with candies while shoving hers onto my face. She even got this tiny pouch squeezed inside the socks that she'd carried around the neighborhood! I hurriedly rushed to get mine, and indeed, my socks really had candies, and chocolates in them. I was so happy! Like Santa Claus knew I'd been a good girl?? He knew I existed, and traveled all the way to give me these? How come I missed him? I wished I'd never slept that night. I was just jumping out for joy that morning.

SO DON'T TELL ME SANTA CLAUS IS NOT FUCKING REAL BECAUSE HE IS! 

From then on, we would do it every Christmas. It's not always a win-win, sometimes, we would not get any which made me sad because I thought Santa Claus had probably forgotten about me. Or perhaps my name was on his naughty list. Until we grew out of it. I was probably hitting my early adolescent stage at that time so we stopped hanging our socks. I started wondering about who could be the person behind all of those schemes too. I remember the candies were also not store-bought, it's something you'd see in balikbayan boxes coz they're obviously internationally made. So it was still a mystery to me. I think my sister and I talked about it as adults. Because who would really put those candies, right? I didn't think I told my parents about it. But she said it's them who were filling those in our socks. Whoever did it. Whether it's my parents or Santa Claus himself, it made me happy, and grateful. If it were my parents, that'd really come off as a surprise. I never saw them once enter our room to sneakily do it more so, climb up to our window from outside. I wish I did because look at me being so clueless at 28 when it's obviously a person who did it, not Santa (hate to admit this!) Nevertheless, my Christmas childhood memory became so unforgettable. I love remembering those innocent, and exciting moments as a kid. It was what made me look forward to Christmas every year.

And if I'm to have a family one day, I love to do something like this for my kids too. To have this make-believe fantasy play that they will remember forever. I'm already a full-blown adult but it still confuses me to this day lol 

 I've thought about being a good girl a lot that I've lowkey developed a praise kink hehe so Santa, tell me I'm a good girl, and things might now be different. lololol jk!

Kidding aside, this will be my last blog for 2022. Hope you all will have a festive, and prosperous New Year! I'll talk to you all next year! 

Enjoy the rest of your holidays.♥

PS. Ingat sa paputok hehe

xoxo

Grace

 Let's talk about November, which is a bit exhausting... but hey at least we made it all through! ESPECIALLY ME. I'm always thankful every time a month passes by without me having any heart attacks or getting my body dismembered by some serial killers. Life is unpredictable, so every day should be treated like it's your last day. Let's just say I'm starting this blog quite dark.  

Dark, because nothing ever comes close to that word as death. And death is mostly remembered every November. 

Just a week apart from November 1st, was my mom's death anniversary. My sister and I made sure we pay her a visit before she comes to us herself. I mean if you are visiting us Ma, you better be looking all cleaned up, and healthy! It's been 6 years, would you look at how time had passed? and yet everything still feels so surreal. You know my mom, we never really had that talk about boys or life in general. I sometimes would tell her a thing or two just to see her reaction but we never talk much about it. So if she's here right now, I'd straight up throw some never-before-asked questions of a curious, and adult daughter. One thing I can confirm though, my questions will probably blow her mind. She's in no way gonna be ready to answer it all! Visit my dreams Atunton, and we'll talk more about it.

So after dropping by to say hi, we went straight to get some pizzzzaaaaa!!! the only time we were able to talk about personal, and other girly stuff because whenever Bogart is around, we all know it's gonna be me gushing about how cute, and tiny he is! The Tita in me has fully been activated from the moment he was born and I bet my friends on Facebook find me soo annoying right now. Do the honors please, block me coz this bitch is not stopping anytime soon hehe

In the 2nd week, my former workmates turned friends and I met for some much-needed catch up which is basically us ranting about how tiresome being an adult is. We all agreed while chugging some cocktails coz it's not a night out without booze. Oh and we played bowling too which was my first time! I sucked so bad but it was soo much fun. I went home with a swollen arm. :)

In the 3rd week, met my bestie, Gail!!! and this time the chika was unlimited! We waited for SM Aura to open to try Puffy's where they sell souffle pancakes. Also had Frankie's then sat for more than 2 hours just telling life stories, and realizing we have a lot of similarities than we thought. A day with this girl is always delightful, and sweet. ♥

If I'm not out meeting my friends, you'd expect me babysitting my nephew. 

And we actually roamed around BGC. Look at this cutie wearing Tanjiro from Demon Slayer's outfit! 

We dropped by S&R to do some quick grocery shopping and then walked our way to Muji Cafe at Central Square. Bogart's first cafe trip!! It's really tiring carrying a baby around with you and dealing with his constant tantrums. He is still not used to being exposed to crowds, and being outside overwhelms him. As much as we'd like to stay home every weekend, this will benefit him. This baby can't grow up being ignorant of everything.  

Anyway, I tried Muji's Matcha Latte for Php145, it was hella good. Also bought some new addition to my green tea collection. I got Ito En Matcha Green Tea from S&R, and Green Tea with Mint from Marks & Spencer. The Ito En Matcha has chamomile on it, I slept like a baby for 12 hrs. Definitely a good purchase!

Oh and we did a DIY photoshoot for my nephew's Baptism invitation. I took photographs while my sister assisted me by holding the lamp and playing Cocomelon's intro a hundred times over. We owe his genuine, and kilig smiles to that watermelon lol Sharing some snaps! Also, did the invitation myself because who else? Taking full credit for every damn thing. It's my first time using Canva and I got the parent's approval so it's a win for me! Not bad for a first-timer I guess.

And this grocery duty-turned-coffee date! This time with my loving Tita, and cousin ♥ It was such a relaxing time that we swore to do it again. Dear Joe is so cute they even have this cute mailbox, a pen, and paper on every table in case you might want to write a love letter to your future husband/wife. WHICH I DEFINITELY GAVE INTO. Wrote my future lover a letter lol

Random photos on my camera roll!

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I had a lot of time on my hands so I was able to squeeze in some docuseries and movies. 

"Unsolved Mysteries" episodes are all out so I'm ticking that off the list, also done with "The Worst Roommate".

So let's move on...

"Sins of Our Mother",a true crime series about the story of a mother, Lori, and how she ended up killing her children due to some cult shit she believed in. She's telling all her friends, and families that her kids were safe, while she dug their own graves. So much for a good mom.  

Another cult docu is, "Keep Sweet: Pray, and Obey". got me researching more about the "FLDS" cult coz this one is still around and has some huge followers despite their "Prophet" being jailed for raping and marrying off minors. He made everyone believe that he was this so-called Prophet, and whoever disobeys him will face hell. He's fooled thousands of people, but the worst, and sickening act he did, was rape a 12-year-old girl!!!!!! That man was sick in the head, he should be electrified for his sins. And to everyone who still believes in him, I hope you all wake up and don't let yourselves be blinded by this rapist's words. He's just an old horny dude with lots of money. 

Aaand I'm on episode 2 of "Catching Killers" as we speak. A true crime series that focuses on.. well.. catching killers, finally some closures, right? unlike some other docu that I've watched. Yes, I'm talking to you, "Unsolved Mysteries". smh u got me thinking all night about who did it and what happened after every goddamn episode.

On a lighter note, everyone in the show kind of just moved on with their lives. I want to secure a man like Jake Peralta lol he's my standard in men. 

I also binge-watched "Wednesday". Jenna Ortega played her role so well. Have you seen her dance in episode 4? It's one of the highlights of the show. Have not seen the original but seen some clips all over the internet. Might actually try to watch it because of this! Oh and btw, Christina Ricci, the one who played Wednesday in the older version, also got a part in it. 10/10 would recommend it!!

The only local film that I've seen this month is, "Ngayon Kaya". Was recommended by a good friend of mine. It was so-so for me. But a nice refresher! I just find the acting, and the story a little off. I did shed a tear or two though but that's just it hehe Well, the story is about two people, stuck, thinking a million what-ifs. What if he stayed, what if she gave him a chance, what if they both admitted that they like each other. Wouldn't that be so much easier? Also, a part that bothered me is the fact that Paulo Avelino, in the movie is already engaged!! that's emotional cheating dude! but you do you. 

November despite me being literally everywhere still felt a bit dull? I could not think of the right term to describe it but I'm just glad I'm over it. To be honest, I also want December to go by so fast. I used to be excited but now I'm just ya know.. 

I hope this dull feeling goes away, let's see how December unfolds. This has been a bit gloomy so I'm ending it here. 

Thanks for reading! Stay safe and make good life choices people. 

xoxo

Grace

I'm one of the many people out there who instantly became a Swiftie when she released "Love Story" way back in 2008! I remember that day, I was just casually chilling in the living room when that song played on MTV. It was love at first sight! Her beauty,

 her ball gown, 

her, dancing with Romeo, and the 18th century vibes.

Lawd sign me tf up! That very song was her breakthrough song! She's just winning awards, and topping the charts with it! You just hear it literally everywhere and being her new fan, I'd wait for the music TV shows to play it every day. 

One random morning, my mom bought some new CDs. Okay peeps, we're talking about the year 2008 here mmhkay?, and we don't have Spotify yet. And the closest thing we have to music, aside from the radio were CDs. So yeah, one of the CDs that she got that day was Taylor Swift's "Fearless" album which my sister and I jammed to. We would scream at the top of our lungs singing, "The Way I Loved You"! And I thought that after quite some time, the fan girl in me would go away. 

HELL NAH

Fast forward to High School, it was our vacant period so the fresh high school me ehem! was just making chika with my classmates when one of my friends pulled my hand and dragged me into this circle of girls. And in between that circle, was a boy playing guitar. And that ladies and gents was the start of Bill and I's friendship. So my friend who dragged me, Caselyn she's like "omg Bill, eto si Grace, kumakanta ng Taylor yan!". Bill, he's my classmate too but we never really spoke to each other until that day. That's when I learned that he's a Swiftie too! He asked me what song do I want to sing, and I said let's try "Fearless".He started playing the guitar and I sang the song. Right after that day, we'd stick together and eventually took me in in their little band with our other friends/classmates. Who would have thought that one song could bring us all together, and form a connection out of our passions? You'd see us jamming into hallways, singing in front of the class, and we'd always have band practices after class hours while eating pizza or swirly bits! 

"Fearless", is a song that will always hold a special place in my heart.  

Oh to be young again!! the editing threw me out lololol

I was able to meet someone who shares the same amount of interest in Taylor, and it's someone who's a complete badass at playing guitar!! Bill, he became my best friend later on. It was sort of an unexpected friendship because we were both from different groups, but we worked it out and made friends with basically every one of them. It's mostly because of her, and our burning desire to always play music. That's also the same time, I got to hear some of her unreleased songs and her self-titled, and debut album "Taylor Swift", which we would also jam into, and even in karaoke! After almost 14 years of being friends, we'd still sing songs from her debut era and it's always a complete nostalgia!

Because of royalty issues, Taylor decided to re-record her albums so she can own her masters. I almost cried hearing "Love Story", in her version. Her voice has matured so much but the song still gave me so many memories. 

Stream her Taylor Swift version album folks!

She's been my inspiration to write my own songs. I never learned the guitar, but Bill was there to cover for my lack of motivation to learn lol I wrote songs and he'd throw some chords on them. Sad that we have not recorded it though. Oh and there's one time, we wrote a song together, and sent it over to ABSCBN haha! that's how crazy we were back then. Quite an experience though because we spent time just coming up with lyrics, and tunes and had it done all in one night!

Anyway, I'll be sharing my top faves and our most jammed on both albums I've mentioned. 

"Taylor Swift" Album (will put the links here once she releases her version)

1.) I'm Only Me When I'm With You

2.) Mary's Song

3.) Picture to Burn

4.) A Place in This World

5.) Invisible

6.) I'd Lie

7.) Our Song

"Fearless" Album

1.) Fearless

2.) Love Story

3.) You're Not Sorry

4.) Forever and Always

5.) Jump Then Fall

6.) Untouchable

7.) Hey Stephen

I'm pretty sure I'll be staying as a Swiftie til I'm old and grey. I swear whoever's gonna end up with me should start streaming as early as now because it's gonna be a Taylor-filled household lololol 

Thanks for reading, and bearing my fangirling til here!

I'll see you on my next blog "Speak Now". My all-time-favorite album of hers♥

xoxo

Grace

 Currently listening to "Midnight Rain", while typing this, and this is basically where I got the idea for today's blog. Apparently, it's also a Tiktok trend wherein people would tell their breakup stories. I think we all have that someone who without a doubt, will always have a special place in our hearts. Our TOTGA aka The One That Got Away. The ones we had to let go for whatever reason. 

So I thought I'd share mine today, grab a popcorn while you're at it.

Let's call him "R". So R was my classmate throughout College years. He's kind, not much of a talker, shy type of guy but he'd always make me copy his answers on quizzes since we were seated next to each other lol I was outgoing, talkative, and the one who's always with the squad. We were so different from each other so I'd always strike up a conversation. I mean with a big-ass loud mouth, I'm not one to stay silent throughout the class. Since he's the quiet type, it did take some time for us to get comfortable talking with each other. I've had a tiny bit of a happy crush on him coz he's this cute, tall, payat, and maputi with the emo/mysterious vibe aura around him but I wasn't a fan of confessing such little emotions back then so I kept my mouth shut. 

When another boy courted me, I entertained him, and soon enough we got into a relationship. Which I'd rather not talk about because it was toxic. I was this fresh college student who was overly excited to have her first lover and I got so worked up on that idea that even when I barely liked the dude, I gave it a try. I was just under the impression that having your first boyfriend in College would all be kilig, and butterflies but it's the worst of the worst lol I broke up with him just after 3 months of dating. Believe me, when I tell you, it felt like YYEAAARRSS! Coming from a toxic relationship really fucked me up. My mental health was really bad at that time. R, he was nice enough to cheer me up and be there for me since my ex was still bugging, and threatening me at that time. I was never mending a broken heart since all I got from that relationship was madness, anxiety, and the desperate need to get away from my ex and R was there to the rescue. Like a knight in shining armor. Not only did he give me butterflies, but he also treated me like some fine jewelry. 

I was happy, and my heart was just full of love. He was just there, checking all my green flag lists like he'd read my mind. BARE MINIMUM? What's that? He would walk me home, and would always make sure that I was taken care of. Never missed a day. We'd always spend the day together after our class, just eating somewhere, watching movies in Cinema, or just staying at the park, talking til the night comes. We would visit our friends, and go out drinking. But I got to know R personally, he'd tell me stories about his family and how he got his scar on his arm. Got introduced to his best friend too! Even met my mom because I was in the same group as him in one of our school projects. Mom actually asked me about him when he picked me up from home one morning. I bet at that time, she knew something was up, and I loved her reaction, she didn't go all protective mom mode but more of kinikilig HAHA !

I remember one time, we were walking through a busy crowd of Carriedo, if you know that place, you know it's just a pack of people walking to and fro. My shoelaces got untied while strolling so I stopped in my tracks to tie them, and R, despite the pool of people bumping into us from every direction. He got down on one knee and fucking tied my shoelaces for me!!! I'm telling you he raises my standard so high I had to act okay when my kilig was at its peak. We were just so in love, and everyone in the class was rooting for us. I couldn't have asked for more. 

I knew that one day, I was going to regret the decision I made. But as the song goes, "All of me changed, like midnight". It's like something snapped inside me and I chose to do what I felt was the right thing to do at that time. 

TO LET HIM GO.

It felt like hell having to say no to someone you once genuinely loved. I loved him, I did, way more than I loved my toxic ex (not even sure if I loved the dude but ok). With him, it's just good energy. 

But, above all, I was a fool to seek comfort from someone else when I knew all along I was wrecked. I haven't fully healed from my past scars and but here he was healing a heart he did not break. It was my fault. Everything was my fault and the only words I could tell him were, "I'm sorry". As if those were enough.

I was stupid, confused, and a mess and he was nice, sweet, and thoughtful. I'd cry for nights just thinking about how I broke his little heart when all it did is love me. The thought of being the reason for someone's sadness pained me and I didn't realize how cowardly I became.

After some time, we both remained single and civil with each other. Though our friends would always tease us but that's pretty much it. We were still friends but I knew, he still cared. And so was I. 

From afar.

And on my birthday, he gave me a portrait he made. It was the first time someone drew my face! and I was like what the fucking fuxkkk I don't deserve you at all but here you go again raising the bar!! Just imagine how long it took him to finish it. I still have it today just an FYI, I remember asking him to sign the portrait for safe-keeping purposes. True enough when I found my old file case the other day, it was sitting there with his signature on it. A good memory to look back on. 

Now going back to the story... 

Fast forward to the weeks leading up to our graduation, everyone was busy complying with the paperwork and whatnot, and some of us had issues with our professor who, apparently, was no longer working in the school at that time. We had to get his signature for a document that we needed to submit. I had no contact with my former professor, and there was no way I could get it done. It was stressful because I couldn't graduate without it. Yet, HE WAS THERE once again, saving the day for me. He went out of his way to visit my professor IN HIS HOME to get my document signed. I could never thank him enough for it, and I know I owe him big time! We graduated together. We never got back. We never tried again. 

I know in the back of my head that I could never ever find someone as nice, as loving, as thoughtful as him, and I wasted that chance. R was devoted, and would always go the extra mile. HE NEVER GAVE ME A REASON TO BE JEALOUS, OR INSECURE ABOUT OTHER WOMEN OR EVEN TO MYSELF. 

I even remember that one time, I was already working, when both our circles decided to meet for a night out, and one of his close buddies whispered in my ear, "Di na nag jowa yung tropa ko par dahil sayo", while shaking his head in disappointment. I was just thankful the band was playing loudly or else they'll hear my heart crying for him. It was just a moment, I will never ever forget. 

I never knew the term, TOTGA (The One That Got Away), until it became popular. I still think about what could have been if I stayed. I have my regrets but if you ask me now if I did the right thing, I will gladly say yes with a big smile on my face. We are not meant to be together anyway. He was meant for someone who can love him the way he deserves to be loved and that will probably not be me. Y'all I'm just happy because he found the love of his life and I'll always silently wish him success from afar. 

"And I never think of him, except on midnights like this"...

xoxo

Grace

Now I understand why people stay at cafes with their laptops because that's exactly what I'm doing right now and for some weird reason, my drive and motivation are on fire! lol could be just the matcha in my system though. 

I was watching the newly released "The Jeffrey Dahmer Tapes" just a while ago but had to stop because it was too gore! The details of his recordings are beyond inhuman! it's making me feel sick and I kinda lose my appetite. ;__;

Apparently, I barely got my "me-time" because I would always ring someone every chance I get to appease my dying social life lol 

and this just proves that giving yourself time makes you feel at peace, and a great opportunity to collect your thoughts properly, para naman di imaging marupok.

I'm enjoying and I'll probably start more of this to relax and treat myself at the same time! 

As you can probably tell right now, I have so many chika coz' my 2 brain cells are surprisingly functioning today but let's now get to the main topic of this blog.

How my October went.

My sister, my nephew, and I went to the mall. It's Bogart's first gala with me! And I was like, "ay di na lang pala talaga ako mag-aanak". Because it was goddamn tiring! Failed to make him stop crying multiple times ;__; For the most part, I still loved it though and despite my patience being put to an ultimate test, I will never ever get tired of hanging out with my nephew. The love I have for this piece of potato is beyond immeasurable and it's not even my own kid! So this bitch got to work on her patience, and might as well do some arm workouts because he is one heck of a healthy, heavy baby boy!

Actually, had a haircut twice this month! Poor hair always being the one to pay for all the emotional drama I'm having in my life! It's quite a circus up there! AHAHA! Fellas, that's what you call a coping mechanism lol It was a wolf cut at first but had to cut it shorter just after 2 weeks because I wasn't just feeling it. I'm nothing new to sporting a bob, honestly prefer it over long locks. Easier to manage and tipid sa shampoo!

I think y'all are probably tired of me flexing my inuman sesh but hehe izz here.

Another Soju night! istg it's helpful to have some of these sitting in your fridge. Especially when you feel like going solo. Did it a couple of times and it's always a happy, tipsy but one heck of a good night. 10000/10 would recommend. 

My good friend, Aya, and I had another mall date! He's the type of friend you can invite anywhere, anytime, and he'll always be on the go. I could literally drag him anywhere with me! 

While it's understandable that everyone's got lives to live, Don't you just appreciate friends who are willing to move around their schedules just to make time for you? That alone says A LOT!

October is also when my Father's birthday falls into. Invited some of my relatives over, Bogart was there to attend his Lolo's birthday celebration too! Prepared some home-cooked meals and of course lumpiang shanghai ftw!!!!!

On the third week of October, I had a breakfast date with Gail. Quite the unexpected combo coz' she's the girlfriend of my best friend's friend, Stevie.         

I know confusing right? lol but we hit it off right away. We literally share the same sentiments in everything. Gail and I have been actively communicating ever since she was introduced to the gang so we finally agreed on meeting up. I mean I got used to having friends who are into kagaguhan and kalokohan and rarely talk about something that's more into girl stuff, so Gail is such a breath of fresh air in my circle!

 She's such a sweetheart ♥

She even prepared a gift for me on my birthday! T^T

Thank youu so much! ♥♥♥

And I know this is just the beginning of more coffee, breakfast dates, spa trips, and travel!

So moving on, October 21 is also the release of the much-awaited 10th studio album of Taylor Swift which is called "Midnights". 

IF YOU HAVE NOT CHECKED IT YET, PLEASE STREAM IT!

and support our capitalist queen lol

"Anti-Hero" MV is also out now!

 to a more in-depth discussion of her album, I made a separate blog about it. 

CLICK HERE!

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I haven't had much time to squeeze in watching a movie or a series, but aside from that Dahmer Confession Tapes, I'm also up to date with "Unsolved Mysteries Season 3". They just launched a new season and I remember watching Season 2 when it was still in lockdown! Again with the docuseries, I know. I'm just a sucker for True Crime Documentaries. The good thing about it though, my short-term memory helps me, so how t f am I going to scare myself at night if I barely remember anything about it at all? Mindset ba mindset. 

Oh and I'm also watching "Worst Roommate Ever", another True Crime Docu. Still in episode one though but I learned that just because someone is old, doesn't mean they're no longer capable of doing something evil. I mean, that old lady whose name I forgot killed, poisoned, and buried 7 people in her own backyard! That's effin sick! Mind you that she's in her 60s or 70s already. Damn that strength! Meanwhile, I, in my late 20s am already struggling with back pains, and katinko is literally my perfume. T^T we really cannot have it all huh.

To my weeb department, it has been officially announced that  OJOU BANKEN-KUN / A GIRL AND HER GUARD DOG" is getting an anime adaptation! I have not read it yet but it's on my list so I have to start reading it before the anime comes out next year! Again, something to look forward to alongside AOT, JJK, and Solo Leveling \m/

November is here. 

and I have a question, will this bitch gonna be employed til the end of the year? Abangan sa susunod na kabanata...

 HAHA! jk! I need that chaching-chaching kase mag-papasko na ya know!

See you on my next blog mga tropa!

xoxo

Grace

 TO ALL MY FELLOW SWIFTIES OUT THERE,
MAKE SOME NOISE!!!
Our queen is finally back! Released at midnight on October 21st, is Taylor Swift's 10th studio album, Midnights. Her last album, "Evermore" was released way back in 2020 and we got Taylor's Versions of her "Red" and "Fearless" albums in between. 
Honestly, can't wait for my best friend, Bill, and I to jam and cover the entire album lol Ultimately, I just know all songs in the album are gonna be a bomb. She always ate. Periodt! 

Midnight Rain - The beat and the altered voice, in the beginning, are soo addictive. Some people said this song is for Tom Hiddleston because he's a little too nice and perfect, but she has dreams and a career to pursue in the industry. The production of this song is phenomenal too! 

"He wanted it comfortable, I wanted that pain
He wanted a bride, I was making my own name"

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"And I never think of him
Except on midnights like this"

That was hard!!!!! Perhaps this could change after a couple more streams but those are my current top 5 and now these are the ones who didn't make the cut.

Maroon - I love the entirety of the song, the lyrics, and the message are just chef's kiss. This gives off "Dress" vibes. The chorus is also my fave! She turned from red, and golden to maroon. The growth and views she has of love have matured over the years and I'm here for it!

"The mark they saw on my collarbone. The rust that grew between telephones.
The lips I used to call home. So scarlet, it was maroon"

Question...? - Well this song is actually the one that I fell in love with when I first listened to the entire album. Mainly because I can totally relate to her. Tip-toeing in a fragile, anxious, and tentative relationship. Oh and she sampled "Out of the Woods" in the beginning, and if you're a Swiftie, you know it doesn't mean nothing and true enough, it was indeed related to her relationship with Harry Styles. I ship them soo hard when they dated as I used to be a Directioner too. She's happy now with Joe though, and we support a healthy and low-key relationship!

"We had one thing going on. I swear that it was something

'Cause I don't remember who I was before you"

Sweet Nothing - Must be nice to write a song with someone you love. Ugh. Yes, she wrote this song with Joe. I swear the dude has some hidden musical genes up on his sleeve. "Sweet Nothing" is the most heartwarming song on the album. It's comforting, soft, and sweet. It's when you feel like you are home to someone. It's that kind of feeling and you know why this did not make the list? 

BECAUSE THIS BITCH CANNOT RELATE. PERIODT.

"And the voices that implore "You should be doing more"
To you I can admit. That I'm just too soft for all of it"

I can add some more but that would make the list senseless, it's already long. 

I enjoyed making this list, and I just realized that I have been a Swiftie for the longest time but never made a single blog about it. Will try to share my faves from all her albums from way back up until Midnights! 

Again, thank you for reading and if you are a non-Swifite fan, it's time to start listening to her, I swear you won't regret it. Taylor Swift is a whole music industry! and I'm just happy to be living in the same generation as her as she's the most talented singer-songwriter I know! She's lyrically, and poetically genius, you guys are missing out!

Alright, I'll quit fan-girling, end this blog, and go back to streaming for the gazillion time today.

See you on my next blog about her, let's then start with her first album,

"Taylor Swift". 

xoxo

Grace

 Dating has become so complex and a lot more complicated in today's generation. No-label relationships, fubu, etc. just to name a few. The tita in me only knew happy crushes, MU, dating then of course breaking up. And the worst term we had before is called "paasa".But that's how we millennials dealt with it. Easy peasy. 

But when the digital age took over wherein meeting people is just a swipe of a finger away, dating became so much easier. Lots of dating apps popped out here and there. It's crazy how we went from clan meetups/eyeball to this? Just where did the time go?

The first exposure I had to a dating app was when I was in college. Some of my friends had Tinder installed on their phones and they'd meet up after school. Amazed and intrigued by how it worked, I also installed the app when I got home that day. With every words I typed in on my Bio, came the nervousness, insecurity (lots of it!), and confusion. Like how should I introduce myself to these people? Will I get noticed by saying that I like anime and music? Were my looks enough to make them swipe? I've had those thoughts running through my head. I ended up uninstalling the app, I was new to it and did not feel comfortable staying. My curiosity was already satisfied seeing the gits of it.

Fast forward to today's era, I became more accustomed to dating apps. Everyone has accepted the fact that this is the world we live in today. Believe it or not, I have a few of them installed on my phone. It is indeed a good way to find friends/lovers (if you are lucky). I still speak with friends I met there, trust me there are decent ones.

But as a millennial, I still find it hard to cope at times. Because despite meeting and knowing someone from an app, I still long for a genuine connection which obviously all the apps could never ever give me. It will never be on par with meeting someone for the first time face-to-face. If you're still stuck in your Maria Clara phase of dating, you'll most likely be left out. Honestly.

 And you know why it's hard to rely on dating apps? because you truly do not know the person you're talking to. Everyone can lie and say that they're this and that but who knows! You might be talking to a scammer, sex offender, or murderer! 

Never trust a stranger you just met online. 

In addition to that, you will never be sure if that person is even single. God knows he could be married or in a long-term relationship and you are a budding candidate for the mistress role. 

Also one of the things that bother me the most about dating apps is that most of them are not looking for something serious. Some men there are just really there to find someone to hook up with. I mean yeah hookups are cool, but only if both parties enjoy it and have consented to it. And not everyone on the app likes to go down that route. Not me. I'm like one of the few people who are actually there to find something meaningful which is obviously a challenge or else you wouldn't find me here blogging about my frustrations!

Today's generation is liberating, us in our Titas/Titos age somehow find it hard to keep up. Quick story! Someone messaged me the other day and when I checked his profile, he is 19 years old. Child, chill I'm already your aunty. Go back to studying please, I cannot be your sugar mommah haha

And I'd just like to compare dating back then to now. Before, we would really go out and have nice chitchat in person. Would go watch movies in the cinema, park dates, and try out rides in an amusement park, you know like the actual dates couples usually do. Today's dating is more of waiting for replies, 10-12 hours videocalls, Netflix party watch, and I don't think I'd appreciate that, I mean I know it's cute and shit but not all the damn time. Especially if you guys are not even in a long-distance relationship. To be honest, the digital age made people lazy.

Quick shoutout to every Tita/Tito out there feeling the same sentiments I have. Dealing and trying to cope with this generation is such a struggle. Dating has evolved in so many ways over time. I'm not even sure if it's for the better lol

Well, that sums up today's blog. 

P.S if you don't like me, at least give my number to your friend. You mf.

xoxo

Grace